Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Fear Response

The one Fear project that I responded most to was that of Brittany May. Her fear about telling people about being and "ace" or asexual, was probably the hardest for anyone to bring up in class. You could obviously tell how hard it was for her to be there and speak and fidget. But not only did she break that fear, but she was brave enough to do it while standing up in front of the whole class.

I found it amazing, the strength she had to tell us about her being asexual. Besides Leigh, I don't know if anyone really discussed something so intimate to them. I know that my fear project seems so trivial compared to theirs, but none the less, still fears. Maybe we all just chose to focus on something that wasn't so personal.

I don't know a kind of fear in my life, that could even be on the same plain as Brittany's. I don't think that I would have changed my project any, had I heard hers first, but who knows. I've got mad respect for her!

Sunday, December 8, 2013

Fear part 2 of 2


"Fear is not real. The only place that fear can exist is in our thoughts of the future. It is a product of our imagination, causing us to fear things that do not at present and may not ever exist. That is near insanity Kitai. Do not misunderstand me, danger is very real, but fear is a choice. We are all telling ourselves a story..."  -After Earth


To refresh your minds... This was my "Fear Experiment."

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I chose to darken the lights to help with the spooky mood. I knew it would enhance the experience just enough. I was able to sit around just long enough to see over half the class go through their experiments, and felt good about what I had created. 

As I showed the power point, I looked around the class to see people's faces and reactions. Some of what I witnessed were gasps, ewes, turned heads, covered eyes, groans, smirks and even some chuckles. Of course in facing my own fears, I was almost desensitized to the horrific images of bloody bones. This was a surprising side effect that I didn't really count on. I was nervous as well. I wanted to make sure that I had captured the fears of myself, as well as the others. 

I wrote the following about what I thought my classmates would think about my project: I think that they will be a little grossed out by what I have put together. Some of the items gross me out, and some are just creepy. What I came up with, isn't the most outrageous thing ever done, but there are certain aspects of my experiment that are cringe worth and possibly nauseating!! I would say that my hypothesis about what i was going to see and what I did see, were about the same.

There were a couple of things that I would do differently. I basically had 3 weeks to put this together, so time was on my side. I was excited about this project, so I started within the first week. Like all students at the end of the semester, I had more than one project to take care of, so I was excited when I came up with something, and executed it by the end of the first week. I chalked it up as a victory and moved one. 

I don't think that trying it in power point was the best idea. I should have done it in Adobe After Effects or Adobe Premier. This would have allowed me to make sure that the timing of my movie, was precise. My audio would have matched up better as well. I could have taken the Miley Cyrus song and put it into Adobe Audition to chop and cut the audio down, so there would have been less of a drastic pause at the end. I think that the length of the project was good, but I would have liked to have gotten better, more high-def pictures.


"Fear stifles our thinking and actions. It creates indecisiveness that results in stagnation. I have known talented people who procrastinate indefinitely rather than risk failure. Lost opportunities cause erosion of confidence, and the downward spiral begins." - Charles Stanley

Sunday, November 24, 2013

Fear part 1 or 2



1. Examine the situation.
This is what I asked you to do in the beginning of this assignment. What is fear, etc.?

          WIKIPEDIA Defines Fear as: Fear is an emotion induced by a perceived threat which causes entities to quickly pull far away from it and usually hide. It is a basic survival mechanism occurring in response to a specific stimulus, such as pain or the threat of danger. In short, fear is the ability to recognize danger leading to an urge to confront it or flee from it (also known as the fight-or-flight response) but in extreme cases of fear (horror and terror) a freeze or paralysis response is possible.

2. Formulate an experiment.
          My fear project is put together and ready to go!

3. Hypothesize the expected outcome.

How do you think people (your classmates) will react to what you came up with? 
          I think that they will be a little grossed out by what I have put together. Some of the items gross me out, and some are just creepy. What I came up with, isn't the most outrageous thing ever done, but there are certain aspects of my experiment that are cringe worth and possibly nauseating!!

Class take away 11/18/13


So... What the bleep!? Down the rabbit hole was a pretty interesting movie. 


I really wasn't expecting a story inside of a "scientific" documentary. It was interesting. There were lots of things that I totally agreed with, but it just seemed like it dragged on for quite a bit. Did the movie really have to be 2 & 1/2 hours long? I don't think so. There were many, many repetitive scenes and scientific mumbo jumbo throughout the whole movie.

What I did learn though, was that the information that was given, was very interesting. I woke up the next morning, laying in bed, and I had a moment. I thought to myself, "Self... I think that today is going to be a good day." The affirmation that I spoke to myself, was solely based on the movie we watched. I then went into work, and tried to make it the best day I could have. I spent the whole day, dealing with asshole, trying to turn the other cheek. When I got home, I honestly though that it wasn't to bad of a day.

I can appreciate how much time was spent on the story part, but all of the talk about Quantum Mechanics and neurobiology, human consciousness and day-to-day reality. It truly is amazing how to twins can feel the same pain even though they aren't in the same state. Or how someones thoughts can effect a box thousands of miles away.

Then you throw in the whole spiritual side of things. How does God, or someone's belief in God help with things like recover to surgeries or cancers. The positive vibes of others praying in Gods name, help someone who is sick.

In the end, did "Amanda (Marlee Matlin) find what she was looking for by being forced to go take pictures of a wedding, in the same place where she got married and saw her marriage go to shit because of a cheating husband? For her boss to push he into the assignment of this wedding in the same church where her wedding started... And in the end, it was exactly the thing she needed to snap herself out of the hatred for her ex, and push her towards a new man... with the help of alcohol of course.

There has always been this moment of wisdom in my head. Think about the caveman. His day to day life included hunting, gathering, eating, sleeping, fornicating, drawing on cave walls, etc... Everything that has every been made since then has been a form of art. Doesn't matter if it's a pencil, a chair, a TV, bathroom toilets, monopoly, hand guns, airplanes, Charmin Toilet paper... EVERYTHING!!!! Now that is amazing to me.

There is always going to be room for improvement, but we now have a starting off point for endless possibilities of the future!!!! Can't wait to see what the next couple of years bring.

Sunday, November 17, 2013

Class Take Away 11/11/13

Through the last couple of classes it has become quite apparent, that if we all didn't have to explain our projects, most people won't. Of course, I am one of those, but I have chosen to make sure that I take my turn every class.

I really like Maiyasa's bucket list. Things that are important to her, listed in order of how she wanted to get it done. Though it was pointed out that she wanted to quit her job and then save money, but we all got the point!

I can see where vision boards placed in all the right places, could help someone succeed. Pushing them towards the right path by looking at what they want in the future. Guiding them to achieve, update, achieve, update... repeat!

I don't know if a vision board would really help me, but I do think that I need to be one of those people who makes "To Do Lists." There are normal daily tasks and "to do's" as well as milestones and projects that I want to do.

I tend to spend my days off being about as lazy as possible. I get to sleep in which is a bonus, but after that, I end up sitting on the couch watching DVR'd shows and movies all day. I usually will get up off my ass, but by that time, the sun has set and I have wasted the whole day away! When I do create lists and check things off of them, I end up feeling better about by day.

Motivation is a real bitch sometimes. Some people have the drive, some develop it, some just succumb to the pressures of laziness... that's usually me. I really want to change this about myself


Monday, November 11, 2013

Vision Board






 Of course my vision board is a work in progress, but here are some things that I see for my future!